what's going on heart?

i used to be a very strong person,
but this year,
everything change,
i always feel very sad,
thinking what will happen if 'she' really hates me,
i just cant think on what to do if she's really gonna leave me,
maybe my thought are toooo far away from where i am now,

oh heart,
why have you change,
where do you keep your strength,
which once ago,
never cried on a problem like this.

oh heart,
why have u change,
at the time where i need to put my full attention to my studies,
you know how much this is important to me.

oh heart,
maybe you realise that all this time i've been holding my feelings,
sorry for making you sick of me,
i just cant do it as i don want to disturb her studies,
so do i,
even i am disturbed now.

Oh Allah,
guide myself dont let me go astray,
You are the only one,
who can show me the way.

*post ni tiba2 rasa nak buat, maybe sebab x tahan simpan sorang2,
kawan baik aku, tempat mengadu aku dah pindah... bertambah susah aku nak harungi ombak rindu ini..lol
Assalamualaikum

StillHopingThatShe'llGiveMeOneMoreChance